2017- Ours

2017, it will be our year.

So inspired to write about us, since it will happen in 7 days from now. 

I'm very glad that I took the courage to text you in the first place years ago, asking for help. I'm so thankful everyday that you're here with me to go through life. 

I remember, I used to dream of us starting our small family, having babies and having our own place. I used to fantasizing we owned things together, owned a car, a house or accounts just like a husband and wife. I fantasized how you would kneel down on one knee and ask me le question. I thought I would say le word with the most glam and pretty smile, the truth was I cried like an ugly swan. 

All these dreams were just fantasies and dreams that played in my mind. I can't believe they are now turning into real deals. I wanted you to be my husband for such a long time now. but as the date approaches, I'm doubting (heavily) on my ability to be a good wife. Questions like 'would I be a good cook? would I be a good listener? would I be an encouraging wife? would I give you strength when you need me? would I be patience when conflicts rise? would I be still beautiful to you? would I be an awesome supporter to you? would I always be enough?' are bothering me daily. You had done so much for me the past year, I couldn't possibly ask for more. Now that every time I look at you, I'm looking at my husband who I will spend my lifetime together. And I feel so lucky even my legs feel jelly. I'm both excited and nervous about this new journey, new identity and new responsibility.

Thank you for walking through the tough(est) times with me and not leaving me behind, thank you for always making sure I'm right besides you, thank you for helping to become a better person and most importantly, thank you for accepting a faulty me.

To a year of togetherness!