Life update - 累得跟狗一样

You wouldn't realize at this moment, I feel darkness so ever strongly. With a holiday coming, newly engaged, a wedding to prepare, having a fun job (based on the photos you see on my FB) and all things are looking prefectly fine yet I say it is the dark time in my life.

The biggest struggle comes from work. Never thought that your best buddy quiting would have such great impact in your job. Many of times I feel like I'm drowning and I no longer have the strength to keep swimming, he is always there to give me a push from below. I cannot put the mental stress that we're going through here in words but my metaphor of drowning is what I feel right now, while I'm typing. 

This, is when the anxiety attack started. I need a break, so I take it. But the breaks I take are no longer effective, I'm so lost. What do people do when they going through tough times? What makes them keep going? I thought a holiday with family would improve, but this too no longer work for me. The more time I spend with them, the more I want to stay.

I can't wait for our holiday to come. I want to come back with a refreshed mind and body. I want to continue to share my joy and positivity. 




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