2013

Hola! Ko-ni-chi-wa!

It is my last week of holiday in Malaysia. and I have been neglecting my blog for a very long time.
For obvious reason, I needed some time for myself. I am trying not to be negative on my post, because I am a positive, bubbly and happy go lucky..not a girl anymore, lady.
I went through hell in previous months, did horrible things that I would regret in the future, but I was just being young and a little bit off and wild.
It is my final year already, had few conversations with those I am closed with, we are all still haven't have a clue about our life after our graduation. I am so glad that at least, I am not alone in this 'uncertainties' world.
Few things I need to write down and be future memories before I head back to my so call "independent" life.

First thing, I am so happy that I was able to spend a lot of quality times with my most precious girl friend, none other than Wendy Wu. She is still the only one who is very real and truthful to me, we had some deep talks during our meet ups in the past month and I am truly grateful to her. Not only she taught me about fashion, partying but she also taught me to be a real, genuine person and most of all, always love and protect myself. She always reminds me of  "Hey, you have grown up! Don't get scared or intimidated easily!!!" and "I will tattoo your teeth on my butt! I have to remember it!", (for real, I don know how should I react.. LOL, should I be happy or... *.* haha.) Best friends are hard to find. I havta say, after so many years of separation we still have tonnes of thing to talk about, and our most favorite topic is not other than our Future. We can just go on and on about it, having big dreams and great expectations about our future. Although we are not 100% sure that it will ever come true, but at least we are figuring it out one step at a time. Big love shout-out to her!

Next thing I want to keep it noted is that I am officially falling in love with Singapore. Most reason is that my one and only Ney is there working his ass hard off to ensure he is able to bring our future comes true. Secondly, I do see lots of good things about it, and it is a land that is suitable for young adults like me and my friends to kick start our working lives and try out any challenges in life. I have to say it is a very competitive environment, whenever and wherever I walked around, I have this assumption or "fantasy" about those who passed by me are all experts or talented people, as we Malaysian (this might be too generalize, maybe just what my parents taught me...) think that Singapore companies appreciate and highly imported talented people, because their government treasure their talents and specialties. I love how efficient, convenient, clean, safe and branded stuffs are cheaper than Malaysia even after converting the currency is Singapore(I think I just finish the whole sentence in one breathe, almost chock myself.). Big love shout-out to Singapore!

Another one, I really appreciate how big heart-ed is my Ney, of course he is still not a perfect person or bf, but at least he is always there for me even after what I did to him. I am grateful to God that He put us through hell and tested our relationship with real fire to let us know how important we are for each other and how strong we can be. It is weird how God works, I knew it was a test for us, I knew it will be tough, I knew we will go through hell to realize how great and awesome is heaven, but when I was in that situation, I couldn't see the light in front of me. I was panicked, confused, scared, angry, in denial and any negative thoughts and feelings you could list out. Thank God, for His mercy is new everyday, we survive our relationship turbulence, and I have greater faith in Jesus and my Ney. Big love shout-out to my Ney and Jesus papa!

One more, I am going to start selling masks online. Still in progress of making my page. Hopefully it will work out and continue to run for awhile. I will write about it on my next post, PLEASE do read about it and perhaps buy from me? I would be VERY grateful!! Big shout-out to my future customers!

I cant believe myself wrote down all these thoughts so quickly, I think I have been restricting myself too much not to express. Big love shout-out to blogger for letting me to have this platform to express myself freely.