Life journey- finding the true self





What is life when you don know what is your destiny? What is life when you make no mistakes?
What is life when you never do something stupid or silly? What is life when you never tear?
Life is an experience, is an encounter, is an adventure I would say.

Finding your true self when you failed to make others laugh with you lame joke or fall from the chair in front of your classmates and everyone laughing at you, or for girls, especially, when you started to walk in heels and you almost or fall on your face in front of you bf/bff, or maybe accidentally fart in a quiet room or escalator. Maybe you would say these never happened to you, what about broke up with the you-think-is-your-future husband bf? (That is terrible, I know) or failed you biggest exam / interview in your life? All these are terrible times. Terrible times.

BUT, All these moments, gonna shape you. Shape you well, produce a stronger you. A warrior of life. I suppose.


Worst has happened, what gonna pull you down again?



I am searching the real me everyday.
What values do I hold in me?
What mindset do I have?
What is my bottom line?
What is my real feelings?

Putting myself in the situation I observe everyday.
It is hard to notice what is your stand when you never think.
I am a person of preparation, I prepare almost everything I have to go through.
but, there is times I didn't prepare and, I am just lost in the middle of the situation. I will be stunt, shocked, quiet, hurt, panic (nervous is not the word to use at that point.) and so on...
I am so impressed by my own brain, I can think so much stuff in a momen and then I still never get a solution at the point of time (silly me).


Searching, Observing and Thinking. That is me, whenever I am alone.
Don shock when you see me smiling and whispering to myself when I am alone.

I love how God allow me to do that and without feeling ashamed. This is a very special me.

6 weeks till we meet again (16/6/2012). Yeah!!!

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