is that matter?


once, a girl asked me whether I'm happy to be here? what really makes me be truly HAPPY all this while? I'm stunned awhile... I do not know what to answer...am I happy all this while? I think I felt grateful rather than HAPPY.

When I think back the memories I have here, the happiness I have is only the time when I'm with Him and him. Be with Him&him, I feel safe and secure. I can find warmth and truth feelings within them, I can find true LOVE in them, I can pour out whatever inside me..sadness, stress, confusion, disappointments, happiness, surprises, craziness...etc.

FRIENDS, sometimes I felt is just a burden that keep on disturbing our emotion and thinking..
Disappointments have destroy the hope of friendship in me.
is worthless..fragile..emotionally abusive..mentally abusive..

PEOPLE here say that friends are mean to be used...WTH?!
this is really contradict with what I trust and believe in...
but..
this is it...


WELCOME TO THE REALITY!!

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