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I'm quite moody and emotionally recently,

I learn that being couple no longer like what I used to, I have to grow up my maturity in handling things, I'll worry all the day if he is not doing well, I need to spend time with him, and tolerate with the differences between us. A lot of things I have to take in consideration.

sometimes I want to be alone, sometimes I want to be myself, sometimes I want to sleep earlier, but how can I leave him alone and worry? I am too..worrying whether he is being bored or no people to talk to.

Relationship is really hard to maintain, when we are not strong. I still need to grow strong before I fly overseas.

knowing of Loving yourself 1st before you want to Love other is what I told myself.


Honey, I'm sorry about that day, that I'm being immature, and make you heartbreak, when I saw you sad and angry, I felt hard inside me too. SORRY..^^

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