S I X t h


I have so many things to be thankful of. S o m a n y.

But there's one thing that stands tall among the others. 

I realize there are countless times that I decided that I can't do it no more, I have to give up, this is the furthest I can manage, I don't have the strength to fight anymore, I'm tired of everything, I want to leave, I want to run away from everything, I'm useless piss of s**t that no one would appreciate, I deserve lesser. I'm worthless.

I honestly went thorough all the negative things that I can say to myself. I hate the self-conscious issue that I struggle with from time to time. I hate myself when I let the fear in. I hate myself when I feel defeated. I hate myself when I hurt myself emotionally. Every single time,when I almost 'jump' off from the edge, there's this one person who is always there for me. a l w a y s. 

He is non other than my Ney. I truly believe he is God-sent, he is the one that I ever wanted (maybe minus those rumbling?). I honestly can't thank God enough for him. 

He is such a kind, loving, fun, determined, responsible, wise and trustworthy soul. 

Today, I want to tell it here how much I'm grateful for him. 

I'm thankful for his love towards me and my family.
I'm thankful for his love towards his family because I know he will be a good father too.
I'm thankful for his respectful nature, he takes care of the elderly without failed.
I'm thankful for his honesty to me, he says the most truthful things to me so I can wake up from my weaknesses.
I'm thankful he know how to deal with kids, he shows me that a tough guy like him know how to have fun.
I'm thankful for his love towards dogs, we will confirm make great dog lovers!
I'm thankful for his lack of love for parties, he prefer movies over parties. And I love movies.
I'm thankful for his strong and firm shoulders that I can always turn to whenever I need it.
I'm  thankful for his big hugs that never fails to warm my sad soul. 
I'm thankful for his loyalty which he could have put an end to if he wants but he chose to stay instead. 
I'm thankful that with so many changes in life right now, we remain the same. 

My heart is so full because of him. 

Thank you for everything - Ling

Happy SIXth my love. 



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