Twenties, why you come so quick?

From time to time, I'm afraid of growing up.
After 18, time passes faster than I notice, one year after another, and I'm at the age I have never think of.
(yea, I'm such a child in heart when dealing with age.) I always dream of 21, and I never prepare myself to welcome years after that. 
20s are peak season of our lives. 
Getting married, buying house/houses, buying car/cars, having the first proper/full time job, having babies, travel, buying insurance, paying mortgage, getting loan, start a business, migrate, leaving parents, making new friends...etc.
So much to achieve, at this age, is the time to make our dreams to come true. 
It is so overwhelming, I'm intimidated, I'm worried I didn't achieve much, I didn't contribute much, I didn't make my dreams come true. 
I have few dreams I would love to see them came to past.
I;m putting up my square hat soon, really soon.
What is/ are waiting on the other side, I have no clue.
Seeing successful people, push me a little forward, when reality checks I step a few steps backward.

Successful means, you are making your dreams come true and enjoying every bit of it. While you are enjoying it, you did not forget to contribute to the world; and by living your dream, you help a lot of people.
I really wish I have the courage and support to give and help the unfortunate.

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